"I am like the centre of attention here..."
"So this is wot the world is like..."
"Everyone gives me the attention i need..."
"Everyone wants to see me..."
"Everyone wants to touch me..."
"If i need something all i have to do is ask (read cry) and i get it..."
"Everyone around me is genuinely happy to see me..."
"I don't see any pretence here at all..."
"Wot could be better than to just sit and have everything given to you..."
"I am so gonna enjoy my life..."
Something in those lines is what was running through my mind. Now that i sit back and think what has changed... Hmmm... Nothing at all... He he... Yeah u know i am kidding... But each of those thoughts still creep in at times when things like that happen around me. The only sad thing is that all of it doesn't happen together. There is always something missing. The picture is never complete. Satisfaction is left at a 'make do with what u have' stage...
Sigh...
2 comments:
you need company my friend..who could lookafter you and make your childhood thoughts come true again( i mean all of them together..)..but at the same time..be sure who you choose for the company..for if its wrong..you wont even think of those thoughts again in life..life is a double edged sword!!!
wow! im so proud you're my brother. what you've described is classic text book stuff (psychologywise)
i hate to do this, but...i'll do it anyway. developmental psychology says: when you're born you only think about yourself... only basic needs matter, food, warmth, peeing/crapping, etc. when you grow older, you think of others....but this way 'everything good is due to you and everything bad is due to someone else', finally you realise that most of the time its your own bloody fault. thats when you become an adult. (and its called the depressive position...unsurprisingly)
so lets face it...we're all gonna be depressed unless we become babies and get someone to do our bidding for us!
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